I Regret So Much It Hurts On The Inside

Maybe you did something yesterday that you regret. Maybe you made the biggest mistake of your life yesterday. Maybe something horribly unexpected happened yesterday that changed everything. Maybe someone walked out of your life yesterday that you thought you needed forever. Maybe God did not open that door that you thought he should’ve. Maybe someone…

No Mistaken Encounter:Blind Date

  (Text Message) Hey bro what are you doing tonight? Me: Nothing just got out of class.. wassup bro? Friend: Lets go out to eat. Me: Aight I am down. I show up at the coffee shop to see a friend. He was caught in traffic so he pulled over at the coffee shop so…

In The Dumps On Valentine’s Day

  Dear Single People, If you want to sit around all day sad complaining WHOA ITS ME then you are going to be sad. BUT if you use this time to refocus and thank God for all that he is doing in your life then you will have a positive day. It is up to…

Late Night Motivation To Walk Away

There is a price that comes with success. People do not always like you and they are not always happy for you. You have to start surrounding yourself around people that reflect who you are. People that want the best for you want you to be your best. I hope this motivates someone out there…

God Show Me The Snakes

There comes a days in life when you realize that everyone doesn’t have your best interest. People will smile in your face and at the same time stab you in your back. It is important to ask God for spiritual wisdom and discernment. God will lead and guide you towards people that are trustworthy. He…

Stop Boxing God In A Church

I cannot wait until church tomorrow, but I’ve learned that loving God isn’t about going to church every single Sunday. I’ve learned throughout the years growing up and maturing that so many people go to church every single Sunday but do not have the love of God inside of their heart. Some people even think…

I Never Wanted Us To Become Strangers

After everything was said and done we reconnected. I loved you deeper than I’ve ever loved an individual. You literally knocked down the “do not disturb” sign in front of my heart and somehow you maneuvered into the deepest areas that nobody has ever reached. You walked out of my life with a simple sorry…

I Struggle With Being Alone

It is perfectly fine to have alone time. Some people always crave to be around others. They feel like a “loner” if they are not around people. What is wrong with being alone? What is wrong with going places by yourself? We have this thing about us where we feel like people are looking at…

What Would You Ask Your Ex Over Coffee?

I’m gradually accepting the fact that some questions in life will never be answered. If I could sit down with you one on one I would have a sheet of paper with all the questions that I wanted you to answer. I would try my best without crying and without being scared to hurt your…

Some People Will Never Be Deleted

I try my hardest to forget you. I try my hardest to tell myself that I don’t need you. I try my hardest to tell myself that I am too strong for you. I try my hardest to tell myself that I am good without you. I try my hardest to tell myself that I…

Quote of the Day:Pressing

My faith is so strong that whatever the answer is I am going to endure it.. someone out there is waiting for an answer. I pray this post encourages you to wait on the Lord.

Hurting God’s Feelings

It’s sad that we praise God the most when we hardly have anything, but once he blesses us we forget where he has brought us from. Sometimes I wonder how God feels when we leave him behind. God has feelings too. It’s like doing everything for the person we love and still getting treated badly….

Allowing Mental Abuse

Learning to be with people that give me the same energy and feeling. I am realizing everyday that my needs are important too, and if I do not set clear and consistent boundaries then my feelings will continually get hurt and people will never know how to treat me. I am realizing that it is important…

Beating Yourself Up After A Mistake

Everyone in life makes mistakes. We all do things that we are not proud of and then later regret. Sometimes we refuse to listen to the voice of God and do our own thing. I have that same story. I did something that I was not suppose to do and it took me 2 months…

Searching For Love In All The Wrong Places

I’ll never forget a couple of years ago when the pastor at church said to the congregation ” Lift up your hands to Heaven..If it feels like no one loves you in this world remember Jesus Christ loves you.” I cried like never before. For years I was doing everything to make this person love…

I Feel Lonely At Night

Whenever I feel lonely at night. Whenever I feel like no one cares. Whenever I feel like all hope is gone. Whenever it feels like the world is crashing down on me. Whenever I feel like my mind is racing with too many thoughts as my head is on the pillow. Whenever I feel like…

There Is Something Wrong With Single People

“I hate being single..” “I hate being alone at night in my bed. I want someone to comfort me.” “I hate going places alone.” All of those are rational feelings that we experience when we are not in a relationship. Sometimes we look at all these images on social media titled “Couple Goals” or we…

Morning Prayer

Dear God, Thank you for forgiving me over and over for the same thing. Lord there are days where I say I promise I won’t do it anymore but still I go back and do it again. Help me break the cycle so I can live fully and freely in you. You never walked out…

God Give Me The Strength To Walk Away

One day I was sitting at my desk and a student of mine asked to talk to me. I was typing on my computer preparing for my next lesson while my students were silent reading. It was Thursday and I was so happy that we made it over hump day because I could not wait…

You Are Only Hurting Yourself

“I am no longer giving my heart to anyone else.” “I hate love and everything about it.” “I am turning cold. I don’t care anymore.” Those are some of the things people voice out after a heartbreak. People believe the best revenge is turning into a “savage” after someone hurts you. Some people actually vow…

I Never Thought That I’d Thank Someone For Letting Me Go

I remember when I first started talking to you. Literally we couldn’t stop talking to each other. We would stay up past a reasonable time just to talk to each other. We were so in love that no matter how early we had work the next day we would still talk as the morning quickly…

Student Makes Teacher Cry

“Can you give me some encouragement.” “Today is not a good day. I am feeling emotionally exhausted.” “It feels like nobody understands me.” In life we have good days and bad days. Nobody is happy all the time. I tell my students all the time, “Don’t let this smile fool you.” I am a teacher…

Hooter’s Girl Cries Help

Have you ever heard of the saying “God works in mysterious ways?” I will never forget this day. My brother in Christ needed some encouragement in his life so I decided to take him on a hike and then after we planned on going to get something to eat at Chick-Fil-A, but somehow we ended…

When Depression Tries to Creep Up

It’s 1 am in the morning. My mind is all over the place. I keep thinking about people that walked out of my life. I begin thinking about all the empty promises. I begin thinking about the times people said I love you, but didn’t mean it. I begin thinking about all the mistakes I…

Acceptance Letter: Masters Program

2018 is going to be a great year for me. It’s all about making big moves. I can’t believe that I got accepted into the Masters Program. I recently graduated in 2017 with my teaching credential. I never thought in a millions years that I would be writing a book that’s almost finished and going…

The Griddle Cafe

If you have not eaten at The Griddle Cafe on Sunset in Hollywood, California you have not experienced breakfast..

Update On My Father

Some of you may not know that my father had a stroke 4 months ago. He was suppose to die. I will never forget when I was on my way to work to make copies of my lesson for my students I get the call from my brother in law letting me know that my…

Every Morning

Every morning I wake up I remind myself that it’s a new day and today is designed for a new start, and bad habits can be broken by the new choices that I make. Deonte’ Towner