It’s 1 am in the morning.
My mind is all over the place. I keep thinking about people that walked out of my life. I begin thinking about all the empty promises. I begin thinking about the times people said I love you, but didn’t mean it. I begin thinking about all the mistakes I made, and HOW STUPID CAN I BE. I begin thinking about what could have been. I begin thinking about how good certain memories were in the past. All those thoughts in my head at one time.
It’s 8 am in the morning.
My mind has lost all its energy. I begin to think that nothing matters anymore. I begin to think about how hard life can be with all its surprises, I begin to think why should I go through this day if all I am going to do is make the same mistakes. I begin to think how everything seems to be the same everyday.
9:00 am A talk to myself
You have so much to offer this world. Remember God brought you out of depression and he delivered you. Yes life can be hard at times but you are on this earth for a reason. Don’t let the devil steal your joy. You are an amazing person and so many people are looking up to you for inspiration and encouragement to make it through the day. You shall live and not die. You have more power than you think. You have been through so much in your life. Please tell those stories so that people can have hope and know that they aren’t alone. Let them know that they can rise above it all. You keep using your heart of gold to help people uncover their purpose on this earth. Whenever you have doubt call on God and he will answer. Your grandmother always said “Go to God in prayer.” It worked in the past and it will work in the present and future.
PS: Whenever depression tries to creep back up into your life begin to count all your blessings until you feel better and I assure you everything else will seem so small around you.