I’m gradually accepting the fact that some questions in life will never be answered. If I could sit down with you one on one I would have a sheet of paper with all the questions that I wanted you to answer. I would try my best without crying and without being scared to hurt your feelings. Its crazy how I would be trying to protect your feelings even though you hurt mine.
Why did you spend hours on the phone with me when you were only wasting my time? Why would you tell me over and over how much you loved me throughout the day when all along in the back of your head you weren’t planning on staying? Why did you make promises to me and then go back on your word? Why did you tell me you were different from the rest when in all actuality you were the same as everyone else? Why did you get my hopes up? Why didn’t you just tell me how you felt when you first started feeling distant from me? Why did you have to keep stringing me along because the longer you stayed the deeper I began to fall..Do you even know why you did all those things? Or, are you going to say you are sorry just like the rest and wish me the best and then end it with I don’t know what to say or do to make you feel better?